Am I stuck? I feel stuck. Trapped. Lost. The only thing I have to cling to is Tony. Yet my thoughts still wander. Too scared and no means to just quit and try what I love. What if in doing so I have to leave the city. Am I comfortable enough in my relationship to just leave for a few months? Or less? I remember feeling hopeful. Not scared. I remember being excited. I want those feelings back. I want my innocence back. His picture made me cry.
It's all a learning experience, right? Everything in life is supposed to be a learning experience. Everytime you feel hurt. BAM! Learning experience.
It might be the ugly betty talking in me... But is it necessary.. to step out of your comfort zone in order to push yourself into taking a risk and doing what it is you want to do. you love to do. what you DREAM of doing?
So many things to think about.
I know how you feel :/
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