Okay. I went to work this morning at 8 something. It was looking to be a wonderful day as I walked down to the seabus. I crossed over and had an amazing time at work. My manager and I were laughing so hard I had tears coming out of my eyes. I kept my merriness the entire shift. I thought it would be a perfect day so I started making plans with my boyface to go for frozen yogurt. I was even willing to go all the way out to Burnaby just for a half an hour of his time. But apparently that is too much too ask. So I get off work and my mood goes sour. All I want is someone to spend a beautiful day with. It's sunny and beautiful outside.
It makes me really miss being a kid. Having friends to play with after school on beautiful days like this. Having recess and lunch period to just run around outside. Even to just eat your lunch out in the sun. Even then, being by myself on a beautiful day wouldn't bother me. People don't look at kids strangely if they are playing alone and talking to themselves. People would look at me strangely if I did that now.
Right now, I wish I could just have one perfect day. Where work went great and Boyface actually wanted to see me.
I shouldn't be feeling like a burden on my boyfriend. It's all he makes me feel like. He says he is tired of my bitchiness. But I am tired of his lack of passion. He knows I want him to be more vocal about wanting to spend time with me. But he still doesn't get it. How do I make him get it?
This isn't fair to me.
I shouldn't be feeling like a burden on my boyfriend. It's all he makes me feel like. He says he is tired of my bitchiness. But I am tired of his lack of passion. He knows I want him to be more vocal about wanting to spend time with me. But he still doesn't get it. How do I make him get it?
This isn't fair to me.
And this isn't just the period monster talking.